Untitled


I’m a nobody. It seems that at least a few times every quarter I have to remind myself of this fact. I’m a lazy, uneducated, gluttonous nobody. I don’t say this to make you feel sorry for me or to gain sympathy, but simply to recognize and acknowledge that the depression and anger I sometimes feel when I cannot grasp, do not agree, or feel inadequate in something is a direct result of my failure to do more than I have.

I could put more effort into everything I do, but I just don’t. So when I discuss something with someone and they don’t understand or agree with my point of view, the anxiety and anger I feel is really uncalled for. The fact of the matter is that I’m honestly not nearly as intelligent as I think I am, or believe I am.

I often wonder then why I am interested in the things I am, and desire to engage others in those things. I’ve often thought of the disabled kid I knew in high school who was thrilled just to be able to tell anyone who’d listen what day it was. With more excitement than most can muster for their favorite subjects, this kid would exclaim “It’s Wednesday!” How blissful it must be to know exactly what day it is and not care about what you do, or do not know.

More on this later… I’ve got to get back to getting things done.

4 thoughts to “Untitled”

  1. Hey Micah,<BR/><BR/>I can relate to what you said and I’m fearful that much of the convos and arguments that swirl about the internet are no more than, "My team is right, your team is wrong!! Through painful experience I know that I’m not very smart or wise but in an odd way this frees me to just be an ordinary Christian who muddles through life. <BR/><BR/>dharp

  2. Another perspective is to know that you have been given a good and superior mind and not letting that consume you by being puffed up. Or you could also just as easily disallowed the proper development of your gifting and be guilty of slothfulness. Both are tragedies.<BR/><BR/>In regards to quarrels, it is a shame that our culture hasn’t learned the value of ‘iron sharpening iron’ and instead

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